Monday, February 10, 2020

Birthdays

Holidays are pretty special around here.
Christmas - tree cutting, fondue, cinnamon rolls, the tradition of it all.
4th of July - the Georgetown parade and fireworks.
Thanksgiving - a Thanksmas dinner at the Stuckys.

Birthdays though are a HUGE deal.
On their birthday, I want my kids to feel like the most important person alive.
Every year, I hang streamers in their rooms and dining room.
The table is decorated with the theme they have chosen.
A homemade cake of their choice serves as the focal point.
They get to choose the entire menu for the day.
Presents.  Balloons.
Activities - parties - friends - outings.

I even started celebrating 1/2 birthdays when they were young.
It began with a 1/2 birthday cake.
After awhile, we grew tired of eating cake, so now, they get to spend $5.00 at Starbucks or at the grocery store buying a treat.

It's been difficult being married to someone who does not have the same commitment to making one feel loved on their birthday.
This year, he simply never got around to buying me a present or planning anything special.
On the evening of February 7, Sawyer told me that "dad didn't get you anything for your birthday."
I fell apart.  Tears.  Heartache.
I hoped he was kidding, but he was not.
Unfortunately, this is not the first time.  There have been other forgotten birthdays and Christmases!

At 7am, Sawyer was up hanging streamers and blowing up balloons for me.
He knew I was heartbroken.  He got it.
Liberty baked a cake for me.
My mom planned dinner and presents at Shawn's
My sister decorated her home for me.

Meanwhile, a day later, an apology has still not been given.
Recognition for his mistake has not been recognized.
While I don't expect him to change, I do hope that one day he will see how his lack of planning and thoughtlessness is so very hurtful.

I love my husband.
I am so very blessed to be married to him.
My great hope is that he will also feel blessed and desire to show those feelings in practical ways!
Another hope is that God will heal this sad heart of mine.
I pray that He will continue to be all that I need and that my identity will genuinely be found in Him.
It doesn't seem too much to hope that my husband will remember my birthday, but that hope has led to great heartache.  I have yet to figure out how to guard against that pain.

Monday, January 6, 2020

2020


As 2019 has drawn to a close and 2020 is now upon us, I thought it would be a good time to start blogging again!  Considering it's been 3 years since I've written ... here we go!

I am thankful to have 2019 behind us.  It was a difficult year for many reasons, but the Lord has been good to us despite the challenges.

Looking ahead, we are praying that the Lord will open the doors to approve our lodging request.  This process has been LONG and tedious.  We first applied in September 2015, only 6 months after we purchased the property.  Unfortunately, we were denied in May 2018.  We put our appeal through in April 2019.  Now, months later, we are on the edge of submitting paperwork.  Once submitted, the hearings will take place relatively quickly.  It is our hope that we will have an answer by our 5th anniversary, April 1st.

There is also much change surrounding our homeschooling journey.  We made a huge change in 2019, as we left CC after 8 years.  It's been a challenging change to say the least.  While we continued with Homeschool Etc., we started doing My Father's World at home.  It is an excellent curriculum, but trying to do work at home 5 days a week is more than this mama is up for!  After much prayerful consideration and many conversations with friends and family, we have decided to enroll all four kids in a 3-day a week private/ homeschool program.  Journey Academy was started by Andie Davidson and Merinda Voorhees, two mamas I love and respect dearly.  The opened their doors in the fall of 2019, after they also left CC.  What is Journey Academy you might ask?
It's a Christ-centered, inquiry based, socratic, and self-governed school.  There are three main elements to the day: morning launch times, involving a socratic discussion, core skills, and afternoon learning quests, where they work as a tribe to complete these quests.  During core skills, students are encouraged to pursue learning paths that interest them, instead of parent directed courses.  My older two will be taking early college classes through Calvary University.

One more huge hurdle we are facing this year is with my sister's health.  She was diagnosed with carcinoid, along with a compromised heart valve: tri-cuspid regurgitation.  While she is receiving treatment for the Carcinoid, a heart surgery is still on the horizon!  Shawn is such a huge blessing in our lives.  We know the Lord's hand is on her life and He knows her future.

It is with a prayerful heart that I enter 2020, trusting that I will draw near to the Lord through all of these changes and challenges!