It's hard to believe that 2 people ...
who have been married for over 16 years ...
and have been through all we have ...
ministry ... job change ... 4 kids ... 13 homes ...
and we can still fight as much as we do!
Often times I wonder when it's ok to express a differing opinion
... without it becoming a conflict.
2 different ways of viewing any given topic.
2 opinions as vast as the ocean is wide.
Sometimes I feel like I can't even express my opinion,
for fear of conflict ... and a harsh reaction to my "disagreement."
My best response to any idea or comment is,
"Whatever you say, dear."
Is that really how I should respond?
If I want to avoid conflict, yes!
It's not a fun place to be.
I feel trapped.
I desperately want to be able to interact and connect.
Sometimes that happens as a direct result of a disagreement.
Disagreement isn't always bad.
It can bring a closeness.
But my opinion / disagreement is not welcome.
How did we get here?
How can it be that we are so disconnected?
I'm exhausted by it.
I never wanted to be a "yes, sir" kind of gal.
Unfortunately, that's what I find myself becoming.
Simply say, "yes, sir" and conflict is abated.
Praying that God does something big here.
I know I cannot.
Only the goodness of God can soften hearts.
Hoping for something better.