Saturday, May 30, 2015

Moving Day

Christina managed to move out of the house ...
just in time for us to move in today!
Saturday, May 30th.
Moving on a Saturday made it possible to get friends to help.
Our Ridgeline friends came to our CR house.
Ben & Judy McComb found some teenage boys to help unload in Evergreen.

I'm super thankful we got to move in early, as closing is June 4th...
and we have a LOT of work to do in CR.
Steve is taking off Tuesday -Thursday.
Thankfully, his parents are coming on Wednesday to help us clean.

It's hard to believe today is finally here.
From the first time we saw this property in September ...
it's been 8 months.
So very blessed.

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Spiritual Warfare

While I couldn't give a clear, concise theological statement on spiritual warfare...
nor do I claim to have any understanding of how it works ...
I know it's real, and it's been a significant challenge.

Ever since we've entered this journey to purchase Evergreen ...
both good and bad things have come our way.
In a split moment, our circumstances can shift - and our attitude right along with it.

We close on the property.
Then, a couple days later, the Suburban strands me, costing us $1,000 in repairs.

We get 4 contact forms in one day and 6 tours in one weekend.
Then, on the way home, we pick up a bookshelf ...
only to get stopped by the police, b/c our tail lights weren't working.
While sitting in the rain, trying to fix the lights,
the police checks the tags ... and finds that we are driving illegally.
AND we can't prove the trailer even belongs to us.
Just like that, we have no trailer, and Steve is scheduled to go to court in July.

We are cruising along with the remodel.
Then, the county puts a stop on our permit, as they want more information.
Two trips to the county ... thankfully, they finally agreed to give us the permit.

We find out Christina will give us some furniture and another friend will give us 2 beds.
Then, we enter a battle with Victoria over the playground equipment.
She is refusing to give it to us, saying it's worth far too much to let us have it.
Although it was not excluded in the contract, and should remain on the property.

We come to an agreement re: inspections with the buyers of our house.
Then, we find out that it will cost $800 to have the gas fireplace installed correctly!
And that permit we never pulled ... yea, well, we need to get it pulled!

So many other good things have happened ...
and still ...
Steve's car cost us $1,800 in repairs.
We had to fix a window that Sawyer broke, which cost $200.
We came home to standing water under all 3 upstairs sinks ... and a stack of wet linens.
Steve's computer screen stopped working, so we had to buy a computer screen.
We waited too long to reserve a moving truck and could only find ONE, but we found one.

And the list goes on ... and on ... and on.
Highs and lows.
But isn't that life?
When the lows come, it's hard to stay positive.
But there are so many good things ... too many to count.
The challenge becomes focusing on the good things
and not letting the bad things get the best of me.

Monday, May 18, 2015


What would summer be without baseball?
Yes, we are moving.
No, I don't have time for this.
But my boys would be horribly disappointed if they couldn't play ball.

Landon is playing in the Castle Rock rec league.
Rain ... and lots of rain ... has cancelled far more practices than I care to count.
The last game was cancelled too.
With M/W practices and Saturday games, we will attend as much as we can ...
until we move and have to commute from Evergreen.

Sawyer was signed up for Castle Rock rec ball,
but with a starting date late May, we had to take him out.
Thankfully, a spot opened up for him to play in Evergreen on an 8 year old team.
Wednesday practices and Saturday games.

It's enough to make our schedule far more busy than I like ...
but the boys are simply thrilled!

Friday, May 15, 2015


It's hard to believe that 2 people ...
who have been married for over 16 years ...
and have been through all we have ...
ministry ... job change ... 4 kids ... 13 homes ...
and we can still fight as much as we do!

Often times I wonder when it's ok to express a differing opinion
... without it becoming a conflict.
2 people.
2 different ways of viewing any given topic.
2 opinions as vast as the ocean is wide.

Sometimes I feel like I can't even express my opinion,
for fear of conflict ... and a harsh reaction to my "disagreement."

My best response to any idea or comment is,
"Yes, dear."
"Whatever you say, dear."

Is that really how I should respond?
Every time?
If I want to avoid conflict, yes!
It's not a fun place to be.
I feel trapped.

I desperately want to be able to interact and connect.
Sometimes that happens as a direct result of a disagreement.
Disagreement isn't always bad.
It can bring a closeness.
But my opinion / disagreement is not welcome.

How did we get here?
How can it be that we are so disconnected?
I'm exhausted by it.
I never wanted to be a "yes, sir" kind of gal.
Unfortunately, that's what I find myself becoming.
Simply say, "yes, sir" and conflict is abated.
How sad.

Praying that God does something big here.
I know I cannot.
Only the goodness of God can soften hearts.
Hoping for something better.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Mother's Day

We have been spending weekends in Evergreen.
With the trailer full of our stuff, we've slowly been moving what we can.
Since the house has been rented back to Christina,
we have made the lower level of the school our home away from home.

The kids love it.
They can run and play ... with far more space than we have at home.

Just like last year, it snowed on Mother's Day!
It was lovely!
We attended First Baptist Church of Evergreen.
It was such a joy to see Ben & Judy McComb ...
and visit the church where I was baptized and have many fond memories.

I am so excited to be moving back to Evergreen!
It seems that the move date can't come soon enough!

Sunday, May 3, 2015


1 1/2 years old

7 years old
This little guy is getting so big!
Birthdays are certainly harder for me than the kids.
I love to watch them grow and change ...
but I wish they could stay little forever.

Sawyer is a spunky, sweet spirited boy.
He is a great student ... reading like it's nobody's business.
He's much like Shiloh.  He loves words.  He loves books.

He is still my cuddle bug.
He will come sit on my lap and give me kisses.
When he's hurt, he wants Mommy.
He still loves his blankie.

He brings so much joy to our lives.

He wanted a dragon cake for his birthday.

And since it was an odd year, we just had a small family cake party.
It was the kids choir concert - Dinky Singers and Next Generation.

Then, we went to mom and dad's to have
cake and ice cream
... and Sawyer's lunch choice ...
macaroni and cheese
and hot dogs.

Happy birthday, sweet boy!